Lifestyle - Help Raise Awareness Of Sexual Abuse ! August 07 2016, 0 Comments
Hello Lovelies, Firstly thank you for being here xx.
Today I want to share a part of my story with you, a story that is a big part of me, and the reason why I have chosen my second business venture, this story is very hard for me to write, so please bear with what might seem rambling, I promise there is a meaning to this, and a worthwhile cause, a cause that is so dear to my heart and soul, and one I hope you will join me on preventing and raising awareness of.
For as long as I can remember, I have felt worthless, not beautiful enough, not good enough, just not enough in general, just so never enough, and god did it hurt, still does, I hated me and my inner self for such a long long time, and sometimes it is still so raw, and I still find it hard to love myself, and I am the first one to always, put me and my abilities down and be a negative nelly.
I come from a broken family, and I witnessed things children should not have to see, for my natural father, the man I loved and adored above anyone else, was an abuser, I watched him beat my mum severely several times a week, I watched him break her down to a shell of herself and all of this before I was 5, it still hurts me to think of what she went through, and it was not just my mum, who I saw him hurt, he hurt me with his actions and words, which for a 5 year old with nothing but love in her heart was devastating, and I swore id never let a person treat me like that, boy how wrong was I.
My story with my father is a long and complicated one, I still love him with all my heart and soul, but for my own sanity, peace of mind and to stop my heart constantly shattering, I had to let go of my need for him to love me, because I know he never will, and not like he loves his other family, for he went on to remarry and have 2 more children, my brother and sister, who I do have a good relationship with and love them both with all my heart and soul, but their story with my dad is different to mine, and not mine to tell.
To get away from the violence, shouting and general not niceness if that is a word at home, I started to spend time with a family friend who shall remain nameless !!
For several years from aged 5 to 8 this man abused me in the most horrific of ways and some of which I shall never tell, because of this abuse I was severely beaten to within an inch of my life, tied up to a tree and beaten with an iron bar all because the local kids had heard what had happened to me, this knowledge lives inside my head every single day, could I have stopped it, was I naughty, did I deserve to be treated this way?
I was classed as a liar and scum, so I began to think this way, We had to move homes and I had to go to a completely new school, because I was getting constant death threats, via letter, eggs thrown at the house, they even set fire to our hallway while we were in bed, so The new school and home in an area, where I knew no one was to be my new reality, All Because of my abuse, I hated the idea but didn't have a choice !!
After this my relationship with my mum and stepdad, and especially my natural father became strained, I distanced myself from everyone and I used to take myself to another place, I called it my bubble, I would sit in my room and drawn or make things, or I would go to my dance group, music and dancing has always soothed my soul.
A place where the bullies, family and friends wouldn't hurt me, or see the real me or the way I was feeling, but the bullying, self loathing and not eating for weeks at a time would continue until I finally left school at 15 to move to somerset for what I hoped would be a fresh start, and it was for a while.
For 2 years I was happy well as happy as I allowed myself to be, but I then got into a relationship that turned extremely violent, and manipulative and even continued once my daughter was born when I was just 18, I finally plucked up the courage to leave aged 20 because I knew if I didn't he would eventually kill me.
But the story of sexual, physical and domestic abuse for me does not stop there, for it haunts me even now, for not only have I been a victim as both a child ( sexual ) and an adult ( sexual and domestic ) and now a survivor !!
But this curse, for thats what it is a lifetimes curse, has even touched both my eldest son who's story is his own, but also another precious member of my family, which I am currently not allowed to disclose, due to ongoing stuff, one day they may choose to tell their own stories, but for me this is why I choose to be a Younique independent presenter. this is why I chose Younique as a second business..
Did you know ?
One in five children are sexually abused, before they are aged 18 !! that is one in five that is just to many.. Read on to see how your makeup and skincare can contribute to reduce, and someday climate this unacceptable statistic.
Its time to start changing this and to start defending the innocence of children ( and adults ) everywhere and you can help today ! by choosing to buy this months special customer kudos - The Defend Innocence Bundle - this bundle includes limited edition colours and a limited edition bracelet that have been specially created, to help to remind everyone to protect and watch over children.
The customer kudos includes: a limited edition Defend Innocence bracelet, that when you wear it will help to spread awareness to others as a physical symbol of your support, 1 splurge cream shadow in hopeful, a soft glimmering pink, 1 moonstruck opulence lipstick in sitting pretty, an iridescent pink, 1 moonstruck precision pencil eyeliner, in purposeful, a rich eggplant purple, all presented in a beautiful gift box.
This limited edition customer kudos only lasts from 6th to 31st August or whilst stocks last and as a special incentive for those who buy two or more, you will be entered into a draw to win a special one of a kind thank you gift from me, so please help raise awareness and buy one for you, your mum, your girlfriends, your sisters or anyone who loves makeup.
To find out more about how the Younique foundation is helping YOU to defend the innocence of children ( and adults ) please visit their individual foundation pages https://defendinnocence.org and https://youniquefoundation.org
We as customers and presenters can also help by rounding up the total of our orders to the nearest dollar or pound to donate directly to the younique foundation.
I have never asked my family or friends to support my 2nd business or asked for sales, but today I am, I am asking for your support and I am asking you to buy, for its not for my benefit, but it will benefit the Defend innocence foundation, and your order could make the difference, it could prevent another child from the horror of sexual abuse, for believe me it is not just the abuse you suffer as a child, but the mental torture you live with for the rest of your life.
To find out more about Younique, its beauty and skincare products that are all natural based, so no nasties on your precious skin and face, its money back promises, or to become a member of my team, please feel free to visit ...
This customer kudos has now ended, but every purchase you make through me helps, whenever you purchase, see the pages for more information.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read a little of my personal story, I can tell you it was so hard to write, and several times had to stop due to the pure emotion and the lump in my throat, just saying these things out loud even now shames me, But I thank you from the bottom of my heart as to why I had to share this important post, and why stopping sexual abuse and younique is so important to me, not just for now, but for ever.
Because every child deserves innocence and love and every adult deserves love and respect xx
Hugs & Wishes